And Yet Another Angel

Yet You are He Who took me out of the womb! Psalm 22:9

This was the verse that popped out to me on the morning of 17th June 2014 during my quiet time. I was about to leave for my weekly antenatal check up in the next hour. Moments later, I receive an email from Joel Osteen Ministries titled “Expect Bessings NOW”. One of the lines that grabbed my attention in that email was,

 ‘… Today, God wants to amaze you with His goodness.. Not next week or next month!’

3rd July 2014 was my EDD. Since I had to undergo a C-section for KT, doc said I will have to undergo a C-section this time as well. So on this check up, I was supposed to give the doc a preferred date for my C-section. Vj and I choose the 28th since it is his dad’s birthday and our baby’s birth would make it extra special.

However, after reading that verse and that email, I strongly felt God was upto something. I immediately WhatsApp’d Vj saying, ‘Looks like God’s hinting that our baby is going to arrive sooner than we planned!’ My intuition turned out to be right!

I go for the check up and the doc finds my BP slightly higher and asks me to get admitted for the night in order to monitor my BP! (Those medhu vadas I had been feasting on almost every other evening were the culprits I guess!) Soon they discover my sugar levels are high as well! Cutting the long story short, I was scheduled an emergency C-section the very next afternoon!

At the beginning of this pregnancy, a good friend of ours gave me a compilation of audio confessions for pregnancy and childbirth by Janet Angela Mills. It has powerful confessions covering every aspect of pregnancy and parenting. Those scripture promises mentioned in that audio was my daily dose of strength. It is what helped me battle all forms of negative thoughts, fears and doubts I was constantly bombarded with. (I strongly recommend this to every expectant mother. It will leave a lasting impact on you and your unborn child!)

One of the lines in that faith confession went like this – ‘…anointed hands will deliver my baby’! I often wondered how that was ever possible. Nevertheless, God had everything beautifully sketched out. An hour before my surgery, the hospital staff informed my parents that my doctor who was supposed to operate me was down with a flu and that they are going to call some doctor from the government hospital. That’s when Dr. Rani Jeyachandran, an anointed woman of God + a pastor’s wife + doctor, came to my rescue and my surgery was carried out successfully by her! It was then I realized that God has pre-appointed the people who will be involved in my children’s life!

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The anointed hands that delivered Krissy! Dr. Rani Jeyachandran, her daughter/my friend Shalomy and little Josiah!

On 18th June 2014, 02:25 pm (Let me squeeze in an interesting fact here – KT was born at 2:25 am!!!), our much awaited angel arrived weighing 3.8 Kgs and crying at the top of her voice! She was an exact replica of her sister. Slightly chubbier, but with a similar cherubic face, curious eyes and dense dark hair! We named her Kristine Samuel!

After several months of feeding, cuddling and changing diapers for a dummy baby doll practicing to be a big sister, KT was super thrilled to see and touch the ‘tummy baby’ for real! The very first thing she said about her baby sister was, “Mamma, she looks like an angel!”

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KT photo bombing Krissy’s first sefie 😉
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Vj’s angels 😉

Cradling Krissy in my arms I could only thank God for another priceless gift! Five years ago, I was hopeless when all my dreams of becoming a mommy were shattered when doctors could not find my Fallopian tubes (You can read more about it here!). Today, being a mommy of two precious girls is nothing short of a miracle!

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From now on this space will contain Kronicles of K80 and Krissy =)

When My Dream Crumbled

Becoming a mommy of three was always my childhood dream. I constantly dreamt of dressing them up, packing their school bags, helping them out in their home work, taking them for music lessons, teaching them to sing,  reading out bed time stories and every small thing a regular mom would do!

Life moved on… I got married to a handsome and wonderful young man. Married life was absolute bliss the first year until we wanted to have a baby!

Several months went by, with no signs of me becoming pregnant. Depression started setting in each time I got the news of someone getting pregnant. Viewing albums of newborns used to make me wonder whether I would ever get to enjoy such priceless moments. Every other relative and friend I came across started enquiring if I had any “good-news” and I didn’t have any!

I finally decided to visit a Gyno to get myself a normal check-up. What I expected to be a single visit, turned out to be a series of tests, scans and x-rays – trust me, not a very pleasant experience!

My first test result was –

Uterus – Mixed echogenic mass seen measuring 40 x 38 mm close to the left ovary… FIBROID.

Ovaries – Appear enlarged in size and volume with multiple small follicles seen at the periphery of both ovaries.

BOOOM! That was my first shocker! But I had a much scarier news awaiting me!

I was asked to undergo a hysterosalpingogram (HSG Test) to check if my fallopian tubes were doing okay. The doctor performed the test on me thrice and at the end of it her face looked rather disappointed. By the look on her face I knew she had some not-so-nice news for me. Yes! My fallopian tubes were missing on the x-ray!

That’s when my childhood dream crumbled!

I can never explain the pain and disappointment, I went through the following months. I could never return from a birthday party with a smile. It reminded me of what I could never enjoy. I felt embarrassed to come face to face with my friends who just turned mommies. (These are honest confessions of my heart and I don’t intend to offend anyone!). I even began to contemplate adoption, hoping that would be the least I could do to fulfill my dream. Through all these tough and agonizing moments, my husband was the strong pillar I leaned on. He constantly encouraged me not to give up and reminded that God was still in the miracle working business!

My DH was right! Despite all the medical odds, my preg card turned positive on the morning of 14th September 2009! I feared it might be an ectopic pregnancy. But it wasn’t because when my God does something, it can never ever go wrong! That morning marked the beginning of my dream! On May 7, 2010, our bundle of joy made her grand entrance!

Thus my God proved how He specializes in making dreams come true!